Mature prayer topics (older or mature members only, please)

[shooraijin]

Yes, you are under an automatic probation. No, we don't give that number out, but it's not a high bar (high enough so that trolls find something else to do, but low enough that most genuine members persevere).

[metricelectric]

I'm really bad at using forums, so I'm not sure if I'm posting in the right place, but anyways -

For the past few months I've had a really, really, really hard time with porn. Mostly hentai-related stuff to be more specific. I've tried deluding myself into believing that it's ok because they're just drawings, not real people.

What I hate the most about it is that I don't feel victorious on the few nights when I decide not to look at it - I feel completely defeated. I don't feel like I've won against it, or something like that. Does that make sense?

I keep telling myself "Eh. I can quit whenever I want to." But that is just not true. I must be addicted. I cannot quit on my own. I need prayer.

[seaglass27]

This was the right place to post. We'll pray for you.

[Makachop^^128]

Been having troubles in "personal" areas, God has shown me areas in my life that need to be pure that I've never allowed him to deal with yet. Please pray I can trust in God and give it all to him.

[TheGasMaster438]

Hello friends I really could use a prayer, I have willingly sinned by masturbation and I feel like I am becoming dead in sin. I am continuously afraid of God, when I know that I should have a great love for God. Also I have had a really bad lack of sleep. Please pray for me! I don't feel like a real Christian anymore. I also believe I have been idolizing my drawing, but I am afraid of giving up my drawing. I am caught in a horrible pickle. Please pray for me my friends! Is there any way to stop my masturbation? I feel completely worthless because of it

[rocklobster]

praying. And for future reference, there is actually a mature viewers prayer thread. You really should've requested the prayer there.

[Exlon]

He could edit his post to "cleanness" and move it over there. But you're right, wouldn't want some young users to look up in the dictionary what that is (that's pretty much how I learned of it long time ago).

[shooraijin]

Merged with Mature prayer topics.

[firestorm]

Metricelectric, Makachop^^128, TheGasMaster438 I'll be praying for all of you! That the Lord gives you the wisdom and the humility to submit these parts of your lives over to Him and then the willpower to keep it that way. Be assured I am praying for you guys!

Hello friends I really could use a prayer, I have willingly sinned by masturbation and I feel like I am becoming dead in sin. I am continuously afraid of God, when I know that I should have a great love for God. Also I have had a really bad lack of sleep. Please pray for me! I don't feel like a real Christian anymore. I also believe I have been idolizing my drawing, but I am afraid of giving up my drawing. I am caught in a horrible pickle. Please pray for me my friends! Is there any way to stop my masturbation? I feel completely worthless because of it

O.O GasMaster... I'm having the exact same issues... so weird. I'll be praying that we both come out of this alright. But one thing I will say. God sees you as priceless so don't ever think your worthless my friend!



Psalm 118 1-7, 18-24


1 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
his love endures forever.

2 Let Israel say:
“His love endures forever.”
3 Let the house of Aaron say:
“His love endures forever.”
4 Let those who fear the Lord say:
“His love endures forever.”

5 When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord;
he brought me into a spacious place.
6 The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
7 The Lord is with me; he is my helper.
I look in triumph on my enemies.


18 The Lord has chastened me severely,
but he has not given me over to death.
19 Open for me the gates of the righteous;
I will enter and give thanks to the Lord.
20 This is the gate of the Lord
through which the righteous may enter.
21 I will give you thanks, for you answered me;
you have become my salvation. 22 The stone the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone;
23 the Lord has done this,
and it is marvelous in our eyes.
24 The Lord has done it this very day;
let us rejoice today and be glad.


Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."

[TheGasMaster438]

praying. And for future reference, there is actually a mature viewers prayer thread. You really should've requested the prayer there.

I'm sorry about that! I admit I did post in haste because I really wanted help. I will keep that in mind for the future

He could edit his post to "cleanness" and move it over there. But you're right, wouldn't want some young users to look up in the dictionary what that is (that's pretty much how I learned of it long time ago).

I wouldn't want to unwittingly give someone a wicked knowledge, and you are right. I will post stuff like this only in the mature forum.

Merged with Mature prayer topics.

Thank you very much, and God bless!

[quote="firestorm (post: 1581654)"]Metricelectric, Makachop^^128, TheGasMaster438 I'll be praying for all of you! That the Lord gives you the wisdom and the humility to submit these parts of your lives over to Him and then the willpower to keep it that way. Be assured I am praying for you guys!

O.O GasMaster... I'm having the exact same issues... so weird. I'll be praying that we both come out of this alright. But one thing I will say. God sees you as priceless so don't ever think your worthless my friend!


Psalm 118 1-7, 18-24


1 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good]

Wow this was really encouraging, thank you so much friend! I will keep you in my prayers as well, I hope we can both get over this so that we can serve the Lord. I've always been continuously amazed by the limitless love God has given to sinners, it just amazes me that he is so willing to forgive them, even after they do him wrong!

[acgifford]

I will pray for you GasMaster...You are not worthless. God loves you more than you can possibly imagine. Even when you sin...He loves you and forgives you. He wants you to be happy and will help you if you ask it. I have had some serious problems with forgiving myself for horrible things I have done and temptations to think of very bad things. Durring that time,God gave me two things that go me through. This Bible chapter that I read everytime I felt despaired and felt as though I wanted to die because I was such a horrible person. The other thing He gave me was this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkO-D0fatRQ
This is the chapter:

Psalm32

1 Blessed is the one
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.
2 Blessed is the one
whose sin the Lord does not count against them
and in whose spirit is no deceit.


3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
4 For day and night
your hand was heavy on me;
my strength was sapped
as in the heat of summer.[b]


5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, “I will confess
my transgressions to the Lord.”
And you forgave
the guilt of my sin.


6 Therefore let all the faithful pray to you
while you may be found;
surely the rising of the mighty waters
will not reach them.
7 You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.


8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.
9 Do not be like the horse or the mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle
or they will not come to you.
10 Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the Lord’s unfailing love
surrounds the one who trusts in him.


11 Rejoice in the Lord and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!


I hope these can help you as they did me. I will be praying for you. What you are struggling with is a very hard thing to overcome. The only one who can help you stop this addiction is God. Come to Him in honesty and speak to Him. He knows what is wrong. You are not the only person who has ever struggled with this sort of thing. Some people have much worse things that God has forgiven them for. Again. He loves you so much you can't imagine. He wants you to speak with Him and ask for him for help. He wants to have a personal relationship with you if you let Him. Reading the word helps also helps a lot. I hope this helps.

[TheGasMaster438]

[quote="acgifford (post: 1583108)"]I will pray for you GasMaster...You are not worthless. God loves you more than you can possibly imagine. Even when you sin...He loves you and forgives you. He wants you to be happy and will help you if you ask it. I have had some serious problems with forgiving myself for horrible things I have done and temptations to think of very bad things. Durring that time,God gave me two things that go me through. This Bible chapter that I read everytime I felt despaired and felt as though I wanted to die because I was such a horrible person. The other thing He gave me was this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkO-D0fatRQ
This is the chapter:

Psalm32

1 Blessed is the one
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.
2 Blessed is the one
whose sin the Lord does not count against them
and in whose spirit is no deceit.


3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
4 For day and night
your hand was heavy on me]


5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, “I will confess
my transgressions to the Lord.â€

[acgifford]

God bless you! Thank you for sharing these with me, the chapter and song are indeed really encouraging. I don't want to make God sad through my sin, but I am over joyed that he is so merciful to forgive. I will try to fight this nasty thing with God's strength. Thanks again for sharing!

God bless you as well my friend. I am glad this encouraged you. You are very welcome. I will continue to keep you in my prayers.

[yukoxholic]

Hey everyone. SO a lot has happened and will be happening (though I've yet to go into details) this month. I've been having a lot of ups and downs waning from depression over everything, panic, and also a loss in my faith in God. Thankfully, the latter has been mended.

I'm hoping that things will be coming to a close towards the ending of this month and I will not have to be put through anymore suffering but rather be able to heal and move forward.

I suppose what I am asking is for your prayers and that I continue to have the strength to get through all of this. I also wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been supportive and have offered their prayers and thoughts. I really do not think I could've gotten through all this without them. Thank you.

[firestorm]

Hey everyone. SO a lot has happened and will be happening (though I've yet to go into details) this month. I've been having a lot of ups and downs waning from depression over everything, panic, and also a loss in my faith in God. Thankfully, the latter has been mended.

I'm hoping that things will be coming to a close towards the ending of this month and I will not have to be put through anymore suffering but rather be able to heal and move forward.

I suppose what I am asking is for your prayers and that I continue to have the strength to get through all of this. I also wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been supportive and have offered their prayers and thoughts. I really do not think I could've gotten through all this without them. Thank you.

I'll definitely be praying for you Yuko.

[Nate]

Been praying for you for a while Yuko and will continue to do so.

[Atria35]

Praying for you, Yuko!

[TheMewster]

I know I'm a younger member and shouldn't be wandering over in this section, but I have a prayer request that is a mature one.

I'm a very affectionate and huggy person. That's good, but for a while I've been thinking about a particular person a lot, almost to idolatry if not idolatry already. I've been thinking about hugging that person, about laying my head up on their shoulders, and a lot of affection that isn't exactly 'just friends' type affection. The problem is... We're both girls. Because of that I'm afraid I have a homosexual attraction to her. Please pray for me that God may help me overcome that.

[Zeldafan2]

I know I'm a younger member and shouldn't be wandering over in this section, but I have a prayer request that is a mature one.

I'm a very affectionate and huggy person. That's good, but for a while I've been thinking about a particular person a lot, almost to idolatry if not idolatry already. I've been thinking about hugging that person, about laying my head up on their shoulders, and a lot of affection that isn't exactly 'just friends' type affection. The problem is... We're both girls. Because of that I'm afraid I have a homosexual attraction to her. Please pray for me that God may help me overcome that.

Definitely praying for you. You've probably already done this, but you should definitely talk to God about this. Or someone else that you really trust to talk to about.

The best thing for you is to try not to think about that kind of thing. I know its really hard to do, but it can lead to worse things.

[Atria35]

I know I'm a younger member and shouldn't be wandering over in this section, but I have a prayer request that is a mature one.

I'm a very affectionate and huggy person. That's good, but for a while I've been thinking about a particular person a lot, almost to idolatry if not idolatry already. I've been thinking about hugging that person, about laying my head up on their shoulders, and a lot of affection that isn't exactly 'just friends' type affection. The problem is... We're both girls. Because of that I'm afraid I have a homosexual attraction to her. Please pray for me that God may help me overcome that.

Just as an aside, you're a teenager - a young one - and teenagers happen to be full of hormones that can give confusing attractions to everybody and anybody until their bodies sort everything out. It's actually perfectly normal for teenagers to have brief flings with homosexual feelings simply because of biology, even if later they are perfectly heterosexual.

[K. Ayato]

I'm with Atria on this. I'm married, to a great guy, and I still comment on a woman's beauty. Heck, I watch What Not to Wear and even give wolf whistle's or say "Girl, you look HOT!". Doesn't mean I'm secretly a lesbian or bisexual. I believe it's possible to appreciate the physical beauty of both men and women and not have any kind of lustful attraction attached.

[TheMewster]

Thanks.

Well the thing is, y'all are basically the only people I can tell. My parents are very right-minded and conservative people known to use some not so nice words to refer to gays, so telling my mom, much less my ultra-redneck dad is out of the question. Can't tell my church---I fear that a lot of the people there I love will avoid me, and it would eventually get to my parents. Don't know of anyone in town I can tell, really. So you guys are my best source of help.

[armeck]

I would like to echo what K said, it is actually admirable for someone to be able to appreciate the beauty of both genders without lust

[FllMtl Novelist]

Echoing part of Atria's point, you're still a teenager--your everyday emotions (like so many other parts of you) are still shifting to form the uniquely beautiful woman you're going to become. You never know when or how they could change. But remember they don't have to control you, and you certainly can't assume they're all permanent. Do your best not to let them overwhelm you.

Echoing K-chan as well, it's okay to recognize that someone of your own gender is physically attractive, or even hot. You can recognize that in someone without lusting or even crushing on the person.


As much as I want to urge you to find someone in your life that you can confide in, I completely understand having an issue you just don't have anybody in-person to discuss with. :< I've started writing in a journal when I'm alone at rough times, and it's helped me to get my thoughts out of my head that way. Maybe you could try that, if you haven't already?

Anyway, you're in my prayers, Mew. And please, don't hesitate to shoot me a PM anytime, about anything. I would gladly offer help however I'm able to.

[shooraijin]

So you guys are my best source of help.

I have to say, it's a shame that's the case, but I think things will sort themselves out the way they ought to.

[Nate]

If you're unsure of your sexuality, and I'm not saying this is the case (it could just be hormones acting up), then it would actually be best to probably keep it quiet for now, you don't want to get people unnecessarily riled up. The feeling may go away and then it won't matter, or if it doesn't you can wait until you're sure of it (and perhaps about to move out of the house away from your parents) before you say something.

Either way, it is best to keep this from your family for now, I agree.

[Makachop^^128]

I know I'm a younger member and shouldn't be wandering over in this section, but I have a prayer request that is a mature one.

I'm a very affectionate and huggy person. That's good, but for a while I've been thinking about a particular person a lot, almost to idolatry if not idolatry already. I've been thinking about hugging that person, about laying my head up on their shoulders, and a lot of affection that isn't exactly 'just friends' type affection. The problem is... We're both girls. Because of that I'm afraid I have a homosexual attraction to her. Please pray for me that God may help me overcome that.

I have had this same problem, I notice it happens mostly when I'm really lonely and I haven't been around guys much at all, and I feel like I can only get affection from friends, I think its hormones haha, I'll be praying for you, just give it to God I wouldn't over think about it too much.

[TheMewster]

Thanks, guys. You're making me feel a bit better knowing that it won't last forever, but I just want it to go away! Thanks for all the prayers.

[bloodfang]

i surfer from social isolation
i spent much of my child hood in my room and often find talking to new people as...painful in high school i had few friends, i struggle with and addition to hentai which later became and addiction to lolicon and toddlercon both of which i have be come painful a were of had consumed my life and had begun eating away at my soul.
i have spent weeks trying to find help online as it is to emberasing to ask for help. i find my self unable to get support from friends and family.
i often put my self down and live in a depressing hell hole that is my life and often ponder of killing my self. which is followed my more self hatred as i have seen the effect suicied has on family and friends as my mother killed her self when i was younger.
maybe this is just sexual frustaion at my own social ocwareness and inablity to get a girlfriend over the passed 24 years of my life.
at least god gave me my sister lol shes always calling me
and pestering me about how my day was

[Makachop^^128]

About two weeks ago I went on my dads computer, I was waiting for a video to load and got really bored so I was browsing through the bookmarks, I came across a folder at the bottom that had some really awkward titled bookmarks, I feel really uncomfortable saying what they were. I've been debating whether to bring it up to my dad, if it'd be inappropriate to or not, but its on my mind a lot and I have a hard time trusting him because of it, makes me feel sick. My brothers and I have noticed other things that kinda point to him being in this sort of thing already. I also feel like I can't talk to my mom or him about it, it'd make my mom feel bad. I have no one to talk to :/ anyway I'd like prayer whether I should talk to my dad about it or not, and for him to get past this.