Cutting?

[Shao_Zeng]

Guys, I think he's gone.

We just like to rant a little

[Sailor Kenshin]

Is it worth it not to cut when I want to so badly?

I've been deweeding a small patch of trees near our house lately and the thorns have given me a lot of scratches, so I could get away with it. My family wouldn't suspect a thing.

I've wanted to for a long time but I keep holding myself back but I don't want to anymore I just want to do it gosh its one of the deepest desires I've ever felt, if not the deepest but I'm so hesitant.

It is a struggle not to cut, I am sure, but do you think that God really wants you to harm yourself like that? Pray for the strength to resist.

[fairyprincess90]

I dunno if this thread is still active...but I just had to write. =/

I cut. I still cut....I'm not a recovered cutter or a past cutter or whatever. For those who don't understand...I'm with you. I don't understand either. I doesn't feel good as in a physical feeling...but it feels good for me to be able to hurt something I don't like. Which is myself. I hurt myself many ways because I hate who I am...what I look like...and how I act. But yet I still don't understand completely why it feels so good. It's very confusing.

I know it isn't right though. And I'm trying to stop. It's like an addiction though. I can last for like a couple months and then I have to cut again. I can't just stop. I've lost hope for stopping.

But it IS wrong. You know why? Because God doesn't want us to hurt our bodies. Our bodies aren't "ours". Our body is God's.

Even though I myself still cut...I do know a few tips to help distract myself or release my emotions another way.

1. Go for a walk. Just get out in the sunshine no matter how down and depressed you are. Force yourself out there. Just walk and breathe and pray to God. Think things through a little more. By the time you get back home, the urge will be gone.

2. Get rid of all sharp objects. Just do it. Throw them away. Bury them. Something. Just get rid of them.

3. Go on CAA and read stuff and post stuff to distract you =P

4. Punch your pillow. hehe.

5. Scream into your pillow. hehe.



hope those help. They are pretty pathetic I know...but they help me. Especially the screaming into the pillow one. hehehe.

I'm praying for you.

[oro!]

You can stop, fairyprincess! This is not an impossible thing. You know what to say, you know what is right, so do not lose hope. Don't just rely on yourself. Get an accountable person to keep up with you. Lean on others. You've got to stop it!

[fairyprincess90]

I've been cutting for over four years now. I even went for counseling one time to help me. It only lasted a couple months. Then I was back at it again.
My boyfriend sometimes keeps me accountable. =/
I just can't seem to stop. I know I should. It's a terrible addiction I know...just can't seem to get a grip.

[Sailor Kenshin]

God bless and help you.