Unwanted Absence...

[kittybell]

"Unwanted Absence"

Waking up and realizing that you're not there.
Knowing that your voice no longer has the power it had before.
Never knowing what to say to get you to come back
I don't want to let go.
"Numb" is not something that I want to feel.
Things were so much better before.
One had to fight to get the smile off of my face.
The mention of your name would send me into a frenzy.
Now, all it does is make me regret having ever known you.
My hands used to tremble
My heart used to race
At the thought of seeing you
Now all I can do is cry, because a demon by the name of "change" has taken over.
I wish I were an alcoholic
Experiencing a momentary time of happiness
In the midst of a drunken haze.
It hurts so much to breathe
Because it's a constant reminder that I'm still alive.
Without you.

(c) Copyright 2008-Nikkia Bell.

[Esoteric]

That's a nice little poem with some good emotion in it. Nice!