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alot of poems i write i write when im sad... v_v but it helps to get my feelings out... i wanna know if any of them touch you... i know it helps me to read about other peoples struggles because then i feel like im not alone...

these two are for a good friend i had who really hurt me... v_v

~MY PAIN~

Walking slow,
My hand running along the fence beside me,
No one could ever know,
The things I feel and the things I see,

My eyes stare ahead,
My fingers go numb as they glide over the wire,
All these thoughts running through my head,
My heart burns as if on fire<

I wish all of me would go numb,
So that I would not feel this pain,
You make me feel stupid and dumb,
You treat my love for you as if it were a game,

You were a brother to me,
To you I opened my heart,
Can't you see,
How you tore my life apart,

Rain falls from the sky,
Tears fall from my eyes,
I kiss the memories good-bye,
I cry,

But I must go on,
Down life’s lonely road,
With you I’m done,
and on with life I go.


this one is axcually a song... not a poem... i write songs too.

For The One Who Is No More

I have two words for you,
Its over,
I tried to be a friend to you,
But I’m through,
You broke my heart into,
A million pieces,
I’ve had enough of this,
Enough of you,

You fought with me, you hurt me,
And you never said you’re sorry,
You’ve always tried to prove me wrong,
I’ve put up with you way too long,
And now all I have to say,
Is that I say a prayer for you everyday,

I have two words for you,
Its over,
I did what I wanted to,
And now we’re no more,
I tried to be your to be your friend,
But you didn’t want me,
And It’s a shame things can’t be the same,
As they were before,

You fought with me, you hurt me,
And you never said you’re sorry,
You’ve always tried to prove me wrong,
I’ve put up with you way too long,
And now all I have to say,
Is that I say a prayer for you everyday,

It’s sad that you had to loose so many friends,
And it’s sad this had to be the end,
It’s sad that you had to loose me as a friend,
And it’s sad this had to end.

oh my gosh! those are beautiful beth!

thanks daughterofzion! ^_^

i'll have more coming soon.

another poem:

WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY

trying to get a grip,
the more i try the more i slip,
my world is in constant motion,
waves crashing in the ocean,
in sinking farther down,
i swear, im going to drown,
all these thoughts rushing through my head,
as i lie here in my bed,
tears streaming down my face,
why am i like this, im a discrace,
the scene spinning before my eyes,
i can not move im paralized,
i dont understand why i feel this way,
i dont know if i'll survive another day,
my mind is reeling,
i hate this feeling,
i can not breathe,
i dont feel like me,
i wish this would go away,
why, why do i feel this way.

comments anyone???

Would you like editing comments in addition to generic ones?

What is the tune like for For The One Who Is No More?

Very mournful indeed. Do you write any happy poems?

Very impressive works!

thanks and yes i write happy ones ^_^
these are just the down ones... but i do write happy ones when im happy and such ^_^

this poem is for all the american soldiers... my dad isn't in the army but hes in the military airforce. hes hasnt gone to iraq or anything but when i was younger and he had to go places i hated it cause i was afriad something would happen. and i was thinking about the children who loose thier moms or dads in war... and i just wrote it in the shower ^_^ but it made me cry.
so yeah i consider it sad...


Come Home Alive (a poem for our soldiers)



Night time,
Its so lonely,
Without you here with your family,
Please come home,
Alright,
We dream about you every night,

Lying in my bed,
Looking at the stars,
Thinking about you wherever you are,
Mommy says,
You’ll come home,
I hope it’s soon because I’m tired of being alone,

I miss your smile,
I miss your eyes,
Come home safe because I don’t want mom to cry,
I pray for you,
Every day,
I hope you’re alive and okay,

Dads and Moms,
Daughters and sons,
Those who’ve fought for my country, every one,
Stay strong,
Don’t die,
We want our soldiers to come home alive,

America,
Please pray,
Our heroes come home okay,
We are proud,
Of our men and women,
But, we don’t want war to happen again,

Stay here,
Forever,
Don’t leave, don’t die, please don’t ever,
Daddy, I’m proud of you,
Daddy, I love you,
But is it wrong that I want you, I miss you?

im starting this poem/song and heres part of it but i dont have it all


The rain is falling down,
I am surrounded by concrete walls,
I'm going to drown,
I scream, someone hear my calls,

you hold the key,
come rescue me,
please, quickly find me,
come set me free,


yeah... theres more... i'll write the rest later!

Since you commented in miiiine...haha

I like them. Very good. They are sad but in a good sad way.

Hitokiri wrote:Since you commented in miiiine...haha

I like them. Very good. They are sad but in a good sad way.

yay! thanx.... i have depressing ones but i dont post em on here.... afraid to get condemned to the name MORBID.... thats whut some people call me when they read em.... haha

fairyprincess90 wrote:yay! thanx.... i have depressing ones but i dont post em on here.... afraid to get condemned to the name MORBID.... thats whut some people call me when they read em.... haha

I think you should. It's thier fault, not yours, if they can't comprehend the beutifulness of darker lyrics haha.

Here an itresting and thought prevocing question.

Wich do we as humen beings conect with more, expretions of grait joy or expretions of grait sorow.

Personly I think more people conect with expretions of grait sorow. Looking back the storys that have tuched my hart the most have been sad storys.

About the poetry/songs, there good.

They are beautiful all of them, I write poetry too and I have written many a mournful lyric and rhyme it's not that we are morbid or wierd or anything it is just some people express the deepest heartfelt emotions through word and song better than talking about it

here's one I just made up i hope you don't mind me posting it

The Emotions of despair

Myriad emotions fill my mind
each and every time I am with you

My heart turns to sorrow
each and every time i am with you

My heart turns to bitter un relief
bitterness wells deep within my mournful soul

I try to cry those silent tears
wishing desperately you were still here

I just wish I could have had more time
So I fill each and Every lyric and Rhyme

With Sorrow and Bitter Pain
I hope redemption is possible

Maybe it is maybe it isn't
but as of yet it hasn't shown it pearlesent blossoms

I sit here in silent remorse and cry
but i hope I don't sit here and lie to myself

for unto Jesus there is eternal hope beyond despair
and I will always know he is forever there

very good, very sad. are you longing for some one to come home?

Wow, those are really good. I got a fortune coolie that said I should express myself more. Then another one said the arts will help me to find peace or something like that.

heres a very mean poem i wrote about someone... well, its more toward all the memories i have of that person...
but yeahh... it was out of anger...

A letter to my hurt, my pain, and my memories of YOU

You will not escape,
Not from my doom,
I will no let you defeat me,
I will not bleed anymore,
You will not walk away,
I will hold you in my grasp,
You will die tonight,
All those memories,
You will hurt me no more,
These scars will heal,
I will make you pay,
I cut open your flesh,
Your blood splatters on the walls,
I force you to cry,
You will cry as many tears as I’ve cried,
I will show no mercy,
I hate your everything,
I will destroy you,
Haunting, I will torture you,
I will take your life,
My revenge,
I hate you,
You will spit blood,
Your will writhe,
I will laugh at your helplessness,
You will be no more,
You will fade with the wind,
Slashing you to pieces,
I burn your deformed body,
And throw it to the Abyss,
You will not control me,
I have the last laugh in the end,
I will not cut my wrists any longer,
I will not let you make me feel unwanted,
You will leave and never return,
I watch your ashes blow away.

heres the finished work for the one i started before...

The rain falls down,
Im surrounded by concrete walls,
I am going to drown,
Someone hear my calls,

You hold the key,
Come rescue me,
Please, quickly find me,
Come set me free,

Rain drips down my face,
Tears fall from my eyes,
Someone show me some grace,
I give up, I cry,

I slowly sit down,
I hope this wont last,
I hope I quickly drown,
I hope this goes fast,

You hold the key,
Come rescue me,
Please, quickly find me,
Come set me free,

I look to the sky,
Lightning strikes,
My wings are torn, I can’t escape I can’t fly,
So, this is what dying feels like,

Someone unlock this door,
Awake me from my unconsciousness,
I’m dying on the floor,
Lost in the inky blackness,

You hold the key,
Come rescue me,
Please, quickly find me,
Come set me free.

creed4 wrote:very good, very sad. are you longing for some one to come home?

I was actually thinking about my dad who is a non believer and it has greatly bothered me from the time I was little and I can express myself better in poetry than in anything else

fairyprincess90:
I like the second pome very well reminds me of a poem I wrote and lost, and then tried to rewite. The rewrite is in my poety thread not as good as it was origanlly. Its the one I don't have a title for

Jadefox: I understand completely my dad is,,, lets just say his word and his deeds do not match. I worte a poem about an incidence I cought him doing something then he lied about it. It's "You took my heart and smashed it." again its a rewrite due to the orangal being stolen

FREE

I lie,
In pitch blackness,
The moon,
Shines over me,
I think,
How long its been,
Since I’ve,
Been free,

I’m alone,
I hate being like this,
These chains,
Bind me, hold me,
I cry,
Someone save me,
Cut the bonds,
Set me free,

This prison,
This living hell,
These walls,
Confine me,
Smash these walls,
Break down the door,
Tell me,
You’re here for me,

Someone,
Set me free.

that wasnt the best one in the world

god where are you???


Drowning, bleeding, dying,
Will there be any hope?
This pain, this hurt, these scars,
i cant survive, i cant cope,
The ocean smashes me onto the rocks,
Cut open, I bleed to death,
I gasp I cry, I scream,
Trying to take another breath,

God where are you?
Where did you go?
Please, dont leave me here,
Dont leave me alone,
I dont know what to do,
I need you,
Save me, heal me,
Help me through.

Dripping, screaming in pain,
Surrounded by water,
Demons, crawling, laughing at me,
getting ready to slaughter,
I have no strength to go on,
Dark clouds fill the sky,
Shaking, Clenching, broken open,
I close my eyes.

God where are you?
Where did you go?
Please, dont leave me here,
Dont leave me alone,
I dont know what to do,
All i know is that i need you,
Save me, heal me,
Help me through.

I like the frist one, the second one is good too reminds my of Psalms 13

yeahh... it kind of does... i never thought of that... hmmm.

CRIMSON ROSES

two dozen crimson roses,
waiting for me by my front door,
their blood red beauty,
is what i adore,
the crimson reminds me,
of the crimson i bleed,
on cuts on my writst,
because im dying to be freed.


this one i wrote when i was really upset.... its short. i kind of like it but is isnt the best thing in the world.

This poem leaves me with questions. Who sent the roses? Why do you become so sad so easily? From what do you want to be freed?

just some one maybe like a mystery lover sent me the roses...

im dying to be freed of this life... this depression...

people say im an emo child... maybe that can explain why i get sad so easily... lol i dont know why, im not sad all the time tho. alot of my friends say im the silliest happiest person they know... my one friends i tell all my stuff to.. my best bud tells me im the most happy depressed person she knows... not sure if that makes sense but its kind of true. i can be a very lonely person and when im alone in my room i tend to look at all the bad things in life... but i like to be happy and be with my friends, so i know i dont make sense... but i dont ever make sense... haha

besides this is just my sad poem thread, i wouldnt post happy poems and songs in here. hehe.

also, i've battled depression... thankfully i've had counseling and i've learned that expressing my thoughts through writing helps get those feelings out instead of bottling them up and becoming withdrawn... so these are the results. and mayvbe other people can relate to what i feel. and maybe it could help them to know they are not alone.

wow. i talk way too much.... shut me up. lol
questions and comments are always welcome! ^_^

Smashing Mirrors That Show Me My Imperfections

I hide in my room,
Dark and lonely like a tomb,
I wish someone,
Would come,
I feel unwanted alone,
I sit holding the phone,
I hope some would call,
But is there anyone at all,
In the mirror I see my reflection,
In the glass I see my imperfection,
I throw the phone at the mirror,
I hate feeling inferior,
The glass breaks, it shatters,
I watch as it clatters,
I stare at the pieces on the floor,
I wonder why things can’t be like they were before,
Years before when I didn’t care about my face,
Those years when I didn’t see myself as a disgrace,
Scissors in my hand,
I want to kill myself but I don’t think I can,
I just want to be,
Pretty.

Epitaph

Words written in stone,
Above my eternal bed,
They describe my life,
In a single sentence,
But why would people care,
About my epitaph,
In a cemetery full with thousands of people,
Why would people care that I am dead?