CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

I'm not a good person, I've tried to hurt myself in the past and I known it's wrong.

I wanna give life a chance and change my ways but I'm reaching breaking point because of my heartache.

I dunno what else to do

I feel weak

I'll be praying for you!

Don't ever give up! God has wonderful plans for you. You will have to walk through fire sometimes before He reveals what they are. Sometimes the distance through the fire seems to be longer than most others', but God has you in His hands and will not let you go!

Mr. XGuard,

I know how it feels, dear, I do. Heartache is always difficult, and so are the urges and wants to end everything; I used to be the same way when I joined this site. Know that there are people behind their screens that do care and want the best for you, despite not meeting you in person. I know it's hard, but you have to keep going! God tells us that He has plans for us, and they are to give us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11); times might be rough now, but it is in this rough times that we are molded and shaped into something new and better. I used to struggle with self-loathing, substance abuse, depression, and suicide; my life was nothing and those who were closed to me were dead. Today, I am happy and clean and am pursuing my dreams-and so can you! Don't give up, dear. Lean on God, and let Him help. Praying.

Get It Out. Get that out of your system using non-destructive means.

Praying for you. I've been at the point myself where I did not want to live this life anymore, and I was in despair, but the Lord helped me and I was embraced by His love and peace. Do not give up man, no matter how hard or tough it gets God is there with you and you can reach out to Him and talk to Him.

And if you feel like you really need to talk sometime just send me a PM, I'm online very often.

You are NOT a bad person for hurting yourself.

You are simply a person that needs help.

Please, find a counselor or a psychiatrist that deals with this and reach out. You need to find someone to talk to, and ways to let out your feelings that don't involve hurting yourself.

I agree with the advice so far given. I too have all the self loathing stuff and even still think about it. In fact my present ongoing refrain is "if I'm still single when I get 55...." Well you can guess the rest.

Anyway I've also been through bad heartbreak as well with my 3rd ex-gf. It happened 8 years ago so I went through a lot since and let's say I'm a little calloused now.

Hope you find help.